“I am set free.”
Man, with a little help from the band All Sons and Daughters; this truth has never been sweeter. It has been a beautiful and ridiculously painful road to redemption, to be fully honest. I think the problem was more so that I knew this Truth but never fully accepted it and walked worthy of the freedom and redemption I have in Christ, until one day He asked me to walk with Him, and I fell flat on my face. He picked me up and held me while I cried my eyes out. Yeah, not the prettiest image, but He sure loves me just the way that I am.
But now thus says the LORD, he who created you, O Jacob, he who formed you, O Israel: “Fear not, for I have redeemed you; I have called you by name, you are mine.
Friends, we can break free from the sin that so easily entangles us. So why is it that we willingly shackle ourselves to those chains over and over again? I only ask that question because I, too, saw myself doing the very same thing. I was so certain that my past could only be erased and cleansed to a certain extent. I thought that my sin was never “that bad” so Jesus never had to really take care of it or deal with it. I was being manipulated by the enemy, and I never even knew it. But I know the Truth: The blood of Jesus covers all. His grace covers where I lack, and better yet, where I am so undeserving.
The weird thing is this didn’t occur in the beginning of my walk or amidst a crazy dry season where I was struggling, but rather today, two months ago and ongoing now. His timing is now. He took me through a process where I could more fully comprehend and into a land that I can fully possess and bask in its milk and honey: the Promise Land. See, I was still condemning myself and letting my past cripple my growth in the Lord and hinder the calling He has placed on my life. I felt that “Yes, okay, I can do this…but no, not that, I am not worthy of that”. In a way I was setting up my own ranking system with Jesus. Absurd, I know! I was already settling and selling myself short even before I could do anything.
I was okay with thinking that I was always going to fall short or not achieve something to its fullest and highest potential. I was handicapped by thinking it could only go to a certain level because I just wasn’t the person to be used to bring glory to God. He could choose someone better and use someone “holier” than me. You guys, I was letting the enemy deceive me into thinking that not only was I unfit, but that even with the forgiveness of my sins pardoned by Jesus, that I still would never be able to come back from such a wicked past. But that’s just it. Jesus came to save us.
He has delivered us from the domain of darkness and transferred us to the kingdom of his beloved Son, in whom we have redemption, the forgiveness of sins.
-Colossians 1: 13-14
God and sinners reconciled. This Christmas season those words resonated in such a new way and meant so much more than ever before. It was because I was FINALLY believing the sweet, grace-filled words of my Father when He said I was redeemed. He chose me. Our great Redeemer! Beloveds, I hope and pray that you enter into the full redemptive work of what Jesus has had for you since the beginning of time. You are redeemed, my dears. Believe it!
All the love,