Meanwhile, the Philistine, with his shield bearer in front of him, kept coming closer to David. He looked David over and saw that he was little more than a boy, glowing with health and handsome, and he despised him. He said to David, “Am I a dog, that you come at me with sticks?” And the Philistine cursed David by his gods. “Come here,” he said, “and I’ll give your flesh to the birds and the wild animals!”
1 Samuel 17:41-44
This is what Goliath said to David before they went to battle.
I can only imagine the fear that David had as he was staring up at Goliath. David was just a small young boy, and here he was facing what everyone thought to be an impossible task.
We all have giants facing us, taunting our decisions, gloating in our fear and doubt, looming over us every day. I currently have a giant I am facing. This giant, however, is made up of several components. Largely, my giant is made out of heartbreak: I recently lost a relationship that I thought was forever. There were things that we could not agree upon, which ultimately led to our demise. It was hard, and right now, it still is.
Ladies, I’m sure most if not all of you have experienced heartbreak of some degree, you’ve experienced the emptiness, the hurt of questions unanswered. You’ve felt the sting of not seeing that “Good morning, Beautiful” text you see when you wake up. The constant “What could I have done different?” running through your heard. There’s nothing easy about it, and for me, it took everything I had to get out of bed.
The rest of this giant is made up of anxiety and the feeling of unworthiness. Anxiety has been a constant battle that I have faced from the time I was a little girl. I am a worrier, and now being back in school, I constantly question whether I am choosing the right major. “What will I do if I don’t get into the dental Hygiene school?” “How will I support me and my son on a single income?” I drive myself crazy sometimes. The feeling of unworthiness comes on days that I question my salvation. The days I fall short of grace, I often ask God if there are certain things in my past that He has truly forgiven me for, or am I still just a filthy sinner living in oblivion? This is the giant that I am currently at battle with, one that is strong, standing in between me and the purpose God has for me.
Each of us could say that there are times when the giant standing before us seems much bigger than we can handle.
This giant takes advantage of our fear and uses it for his benefit. But I’m here, Loves, to share some great news: We have a MUCH bigger force standing behind us in this battle. God calls us to be brave, just like he says in 1 Timothy 6:12, “Fight the good fight of the faith. Take hold of the eternal life to which you were called when you made your good confession in the presence of many witnesses.”
Life is not easy. We each have battles raging in our hearts and minds that we deal with constantly. I am not going to tell you that I haven’t fell short before, even after coming to Jesus, because I have. Instead of leaning on my greatest asset in my battle, I turned to the world and things it has to offer, which only lead to defeat. When I found out I was pregnant with Colton, I faced a monstrous giant. I knew the worldly things I used to turn too would not work this time, so I used my last resource and brought my faith to forefront. Now, every time I look at Colton, I realize what an amazing purpose God has for me to let me be his mother. Everything seemed to fall into place in God’s perfect timing and perfect ways, just like it will for each of you wonderful, amazing women who are reading this right now.
“This day the Lord will deliver you into my hands, and I’ll strike you down and cut off your head. This very day I will give the carcasses of the Philistine army to the birds and the wild animals, and the whole world will know that there is a God in Israel. All those gathered here will know that it is not by sword or spear that the Lord saves; for the battle is the Lord’s, and he will give all of you into our hands.”
As the Philistine moved closer to attack him, David ran quickly toward the battle line to meet him. Reaching into his bag and taking out a stone, he slung it and struck the Philistine on the forehead. The stone sank into his forehead, and he fell face down on the ground.”
1 Samuel 17:46-49
David defeated the giant with sling of stone. He overcame the battle raging and glorified God in the process. We all have such great things ahead of us – greater than the things we’re leaving behind.
The size of the giant in front of you is just an indicator of what a great purpose and person God is
shaping you to be.
He loves you, no matter where you are. He isn’t mad at you, He isn’t punishing you. He is saying ,“Beloved, Come to me! Let me help you!” I know because of my giants what great things God has ahead of me, and as hard as it may be, I am leaning on God to help me fight this battle, to be brave in my circumstances, and to let the great things God has planned for me unfold.
One quote I always find encouraging is from a guy named Austin Molt, a speaker from The City Church in Seattle. “The will of God has more to do with a person and purpose than a plan. You cannot go where God has called you to go or do what God has called you to do without becoming the person God has called you to be.”
God calls us to be brave and shows us how strong we are through our trials. Nothing is too big, too shameful, or too hard to overcome, my Loves.
Remember Who is fighting your battle with you.
The last thing I want to leave you with is this quote by author A. A. Milne: “You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.” My heart is with each of you beautiful women and I hope that you can find some strength to battle your giants through these words.
All my love,